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D my love ღ

This i am here coz baby requested for me to post :) I feel v weird without having him around me, like part of me is missing as i'm typing this post i can feel my heart beating real quick. I just send him off and i hope the buses would bring him home quick. It's been a tough day for him @ school and he needs his rest. We talked more today, and i feel like i need him more than ever now.
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Baby if you're reading this, i love you.
It's the 19th of april, we had 3 mths and 11 days as a couple tgt and it has been 3 mths since ur birthday. I never could figure out what u wanted when we first got together so on your birthday i was a big fat assjerk and not knowing what to do. I let you go home and have dinner on your own. Even though the cake and all was a surprise i now know what u really wanted wasn't a big fancy surprise or big fat cake, what u wanted was someone to be there for u to accompany you in the toughest of times and always be there for u. D now i know and so, let me be THAT someone, i will be ur strength your confidence your love and your heart. I wana grow old with you and have children with you and i know some might say this is puppy love. But i finally realise what is the real meaning of love.
x
Years ago, someone taught me what was love. How to love someone and appreciate someone, but sadly i was still naive and never knew how to return the love properly. Coz i was afraid, afraid that my parents would find out afraid that something might happened if i loved, afraid that if i loved them back with all my heart they would just push it all away in the end.
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Now that i found you, i know you are the one i can trust my love onto. Even if my parents didn't know you're called jacksen huang i will still love you. Because now, I'm not afraid to love you and i'm loving you with every beat of my heart. My parents i can tell they like you to bits, and i believe it's very hard for you to push away my love coz i know you feel the exact same way too :)
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I know in this post i mention love ALOT of times and that is coz everytime i say..
I love you.
I mean it.
With all my heart.
And it will never change.
Even if something happens to us in the near future (choy touch wood) i still believe i will always love you it's too special to be replaced. No one can replace it. Coz you'll always be the one and only jacksen huang in my life. And you know what? Forget what i say abt something happening to us. Coz i believe we can make it through.
ღ D jiayoujiayoujiayou!

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